Littles’ New Years Interview

Today I was checking out another blog  online, and seen an amazing idea!

New Years Interview for my littles! Such an amazing idea! You do the interview before the new year and every year, you do one again. I got the questions to ask off of the blog and made some up myself. Here’s some of the questions:
1. What is your name?

2. How old are you?

3. What is your mom’s name?

4. What does your mom do during the day?

5. What is your dad’s name?

6. What does your dad do during the day?

7.  What is your favorite color?

8. What is your favorite thing to eat?

9. What don’t you like to eat?

10. Who are your friends?

11. What is your favorite song? Can you sing it for me? ( PS The song at 2:00 in the video is my favorite!)

12. What are your siblings’ names?

13. Where is your favorite place to go?

14. What is your favorite thing to do?

15. What do you like about Mom? (Dad, brother, etc.)

16. What do you want to be when you grow up?

17. What does your sibling like to do?

18. What was the favorite toy you got for Christmas?

19. What do you like about yourself the most?

It was so fun! We loved every moment of it!

Well worth it! Can’t wait to see theirs next year!

New Years Resolutions

As the New Year approaches very quickly, I’m seeing a bunch of people post their new years resolutions all over Facebook and here. As I read some of them and even came up with some myself, I can’t help but laugh. Because as a mother to my littles, some of the resolutions I see and have made are completely ridiculous to myself.

Here are some new years resolutions I made myself before for this new year.

The truth is: I have littles. Two of them.

That makes some of these resolutions impossible. It truly does. Some are on point but some are just ridiculous as a mother to my littles.

So here are my real realistic new years resolutions:
1. Brush my hair at least once a week. I know it seems stupid but I forget after struggling to get my littles ready for the day every single day.

2. Take a shower at least two times a week. Showers seem impossible. My littles always pop up when I’m in the shower or about to take one that someone is hurt or something is broken or they need something ASAP even something as small as a kleenex that is sitting on the table for them to grab whenever.

3. Eat some real food myself. Instead of snacking a few times a day on real food because of running around with my littles constantly, I should try at least to sit down and eat a meal.

4. Try to clean at least one thing a day. Maybe small to you but I can never seem to catch up on the cleaning from being so busy with my littles.

Those are my mother realistic new years resolutions! 

Foster Care

I was in foster care for a period of time growing up. I don’t remember exactly everything and I feel kind of embarrassed because I don’t.

But here are things I do remember.

1. My foster mom Carol. She is truly an remarkable woman. Constantly she is always helping out others from the goodness in her heart. I’ve always looked up to her for a lot of reasons even though we had a bumpy relationship for a while.

2. My foster sisters. We aren’t as close anymore but still keep in contact on Facebook currently. They played a big role in us being in foster care. They were always nice and accepting. We never really went into detail about why we were there or about our history in our families but all of us respected that. I’m proud of who they are and who they have become.

3. American Girl Dolls Galore. My foster mom got us American Girl Dolls and immediately got us hooked! My oldest foster sister has a bunch as well. She had i think all of them. She was older and had them on stands in her room. Sometimes she would let us touch them or look at them. I remember a few times we actually got to play with them! I had the Samantha doll. My sister Jessica had the Felicity doll. We even got the pajamas that matched our dolls! We got sets like the tea set, the bunk bed and regular bed, and the birthday set.

4. My foster mom’s homemade bread. She would make the most amazing yummy smelling bread! It was always so delicious. I loved smelling it and watching her as she would prepare it.

5. My foster mom’s cookies. She had the best cookies ever. I don’t remember what kind they were but I remember what they look like. So yummy!

6. The flowers and plants. My foster mom had a green thumb, that’s for sure. She grew and planted the most beautiful flowers and plants ever along the sides of her house and the backyard.

7. The garage. It was kind of small but perfect for forts. We would build forts in the top part of it and pretend anything our imagination would lead us.

8. The attic. For a while I was scared of it because it was different. But after a while it was awesome going up there. My foster mom had so much interesting things in there.

9. My foster mom’s computer games. She had these really cool computer games that actually taught us a lot. I remember a space type of game that was super fun that taught you how to do math.

10. The bed time stories. My foster mom would always read to us bed time stories. It was my favorite part of the night.

11. The bathroom. Weird I know but something about the bathroom was interesting to me. It was pretty and calm.

12. The room. My foster mom had a room, not sure what kind of room it’s called but it was attached to the kitchen and dining room and had windows all around it mostly. Maybe it was like a porch type room? I’m not sure. But it had a door to the backyard in it too I think. The best part about the room was that there were a bunch of plants in there and we would sit in there and read and do arts and crafts. I loved it.

13. All the things we’d do. We did a lot with my foster mom. We went horse back riding before with her. We would play at the park with her. She would go on drives and trips. We went to camps.

14. Bethal Horizon Camp. We went to Bethal Horizon Camp for the first time and we fell in love with it. We had never heard about it before until she told us about it and dropped us off to go. It was awesome.

15. My foster mom’s cat. Her cat Amy kind of saved my sister Jessica. She was able to relax and not have so much stress on her shoulders and be able to play with her cat. I was kind of jealous for a while since Amy only wanted to play with Jessica but they were fit for each other.

16. Things about my foster mom. How she smelled always good, how she always helped everyone out, her cooking, her lifestyle, her attitude towards life, her generosity, weird to remember but the way she would close all the blinds and turn off all the lights in her room when she would change (I understand why lol but it was different to me because I’d never knew anyone to do that but it kind of has stuck with me now), her strength, her smile, how smart she is, how consistent she was and is, how she believes in everyone regardless if they believed in themselves, her love.

17. How my foster mom accepted us from the beginning. She never acted like something was wrong with us or acted like we weren’t hers. She would treat us as if we were her flesh and blood, her family which we became.

My Sister: Jessica

My sister Jessica is an amazing woman.

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My sister Jessica and I

She has always been there for me. Even when we were little, she would always take care of me and be a mother figure to me. She would always make sure I was okay and help me with whatever I needed even at times since I’ve been older that I didn’t really deserve it.

I’ve always looked up to her ever since we were little. I wanted to be just like her. She was always the prettiest, smartest, funniest, and better at everything than I was. I always tried to be just like her. I still even do sometimes now. Everything about her is everything I want to be myself. I used to do everything like her, follow her around constantly, and try to be just like her for a long time growing up together.

She’s always been like a mom to me. Anytime I needed something, I went to her. Anytime I needed someone to talk to, I went to her. Anytime I felt alone or didn’t know what to do, I went to her. When we were little, she would cook for me and make sure I ate. She would make sure I was taken care of. Even in foster care, she would take care of me. Jessica has always been more than a sister to me. She’s been my rock, my protector, my security blanket, my sister, my best friend, a mom figure all wrapped into one.
Jessica is one of the best mom’s I know. She always puts her littles first and tries to do what’s best for them no matter what. Even when she is pulling out her hair and has no clue what to do next, she is always there for her littles.

She is one of the best sisters I know. I’m blessed to be able to call her my sister. She has taught me almost everything, been there, and showed me what it’s like in the real world.

My sister Jessica is the best.

Royally Sucked

Today didn’t go as expected in any way. I tried. I really did. I know my littles did too. It just didn’t go as planned in any way.

I’m kind of sad and mad at myself that it didn’t.

Little #2 was making horrible choices all day. He was just being so mean, aggressive, and so angry. He was hitting me, throwing anything and everything at me, and yelling at me about every single thing. He wouldn’t do anything that I asked him to do or tried to encourage him to do. Any thing I said to him, he screamed to me about it.

The whole big picture that he was upset about was that he wanted his dad. I get that and completely understand that. It’s a hard thing when their dad was living with us for a year and now has not been living here since July. But their dad is still there for them. He works a lot but always answers his phone and sees them not all the time but often. Little #2 is so full of anger, sadness, and hurt because of that and because he blames me for why their dad is gone. No matter what I do, he’s always mad at me. And we are talking about a almost 6 year old boy!! This is so much that he carries on his shoulders and deals with inside all the time. I don’t know how to help! I talked to their dad about moving back and he agreed and said maybe in a few months which seems like forever.

And now Little #1 was being pretty good but wanted my attention constantly as her brother was hitting me and throwing things at me and such so it was really hard to give her that.

Today and tonight sucked. Royally.
But I know tomorrow we will put our best foots forward and it will be good. It has to be.

Little #2’s January Birthday

Pretty soon it is my littles Little #2’s birthday in January. He will be 6 years old. I can’t believe it!

It’s kind of hard for me in a way during this time. Mainly because of my pregnancy with Little #2, almost giving him up for adoption, and the postpartum depression that I had that was beyond horrible with him. Just hurts about it everything in the past and I still feel horrible about everything.

My relationship with Little #2 has greatly changed and improved in a lot of ways. It still needs improvement but we’ve came a lot way. I just hope and pray that he will not be mad at me any longer and that we can fix this.

I’m so proud of my little #2. He is so smart, always making people laugh, offers to help others, is sensitive, thoughtful, inspiring, funny, loving, generous, and amazing. He has grown so much into a handsome young man. He means the whole world to me. Love my Little #2!

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My Mom’s Birthday

Today is my mom’s birthday. I’m at her home right now with my littles, my sister, and her littles. It’s so nice to spend some time with her. Very much needed for us.

My mom is one of the most inspiring amazing people ever in my life. I look up to her a lot. She has accomplished so much, sometimes it’s unbelievable to me that I’m been blessed with her as my mom. I love her so much and am so proud of her in every way.

My mom is the best.

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My sister, my mom, and I

My Uterus

I think my uterus has literally just jumped out into incoming traffic after spending the night at one of my best friend’s with her and her two littles. It’s been a long time since I’ve had my littles be actual babies it feels like. So not used to the crying, screaming, and no sleep!

Wonderful World Of Babysitting

So far the beautiful little girls I am babysitting have painted my dog with yogurt, painted my couch with yogurt and pizza rolls, tried to eat the dog food again, threw yogurt and rice and pizza rolls all over, preceded to cry because all the food was thrown all over, tried to eat my Santa man from my new Christmas houses, cried over not being able to put a sock into her mouth, cried every time my dog came near her, and screamed her head off because she couldn’t touch my glasses. All this from the littlest. Who is 11 months. Lovely. Baby fever has officially is gone now.
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